Thursday, September 16, 2004
I didnt delete my blog. Hmm. Dunno whther i should or not. Well, i think i'll juz leave it like this lah. If got the time, then i'll go to e-resource room [like now] and update. If not, then it'll be empty for weeks. Yea.
Actually, i still dunno why i'm here stealing my free time to update my blog. I should go do my projects rite? Well, well. I'm tired of projects. Project, project, project! I'm sick of it mann! I need a break. I have been sleeping late every nights to do the 3 projects. No more free time like i used to have. No more time to slack around and view the TV shows at night. I didnt noe poly life can be stressful too. I thought once im in poly, i wont encounter any stress. Phew. Guess i was wrong. Like wat my bro used to say, "You can never run away from stress." Never. And its true.
Stress is forever crawling in everyone's life. Nobody will escape it. If u guys think poly life is an enjoyable one, then uve got the info from the wrong person. I'm not the right person, though, but i tell u what i felt. And i have the feeling that its right. [Ceybahh]
Anyway, i'm sick and tired of being good. Can somebody tell me how to be bad? [Not that i'm THAT good.] But seriously, i need a break. All of those good deeds that ive done, it juz goes down the drain. Im tired. Im sick. Im fed-up.
Ppl take adavntage of u, u keep quiet. Ppl critics u, u keep quiet. Ppl ask u to do something, u do. Ppl never work, u do ur work. Ppl never do work but get gd mark [becoz u help them], u still get the same marks. Ppl ask u to help them, u help them. Ppl never do their part in the project, u do for them. [Becoz if u don, u'll end up gettin zero. So u hav no choice. U hav to do alone.] U voice out ur opinion, ppl hate u. U say something, ppl think ur stuck-up coz u are tryin to be good.
Then? What do u get? Nothing. Zero. Zilch.
Felt so fed-up i feel like smacking someone's head now.[Luckily no ppl sitting beside me now] Whoa, i can be brutal sometimes huh. Ive got a very bad temper, nobody can really stand it. I really am mad, fed-up,tired,mad,mad,mad,mad.....
Haizz.*sighs* Life is a rollercoaster. Now, i have to go around carrying the large notebook bag from NEC, becoz my bro gave a warning to never ever use that blue bag from IMM, which is sooo thin. He said the NEC bag is better, hav the padding and blah blah. He means good, and im listenin to his advice. I kept reciting these words in my mind whenever ppl stare at me for carrying the large bag, "I will not mind losing my image. But i will mind losing another 600 bucks." Ta-da! This self-reciting helps u noe. U guyz shld go try urself.
I noe i noe. Its crap. U guyz spend risking ur time [and ur notebook/desktop], reading my blog juz to hear my crap. What to do...
Okok. Zana is waiting for me outside the room. She actually called me MAKCIK! Ayu also called me MAKCIK. My fren Shu Wen also called me AUNTY! oh my god. Fad, see what uve done to me! Im replacing ur role in NP!
Okok. Im outz. Wish me luck for my projects. FED-UP!
