Sunday, October 31, 2004
I had my weekly Madrasah end-of-year exams juz now. It was the first week, meaning the first 3 subjects; Fikah, Arab and Akhlak. It was ok. Hmm, as usual i came late into the classroom but i managed to finish the Fikah paper in time. Surprisingly, the class was full juz now, even with the non-regulars turning up. Guessed they still noe the importance of it. [Hopefully]
One of these days we'll be going back to Johor to buy some kerepeks and other stuff. Still negotiating with my bro when he'll be freed from his books. Now he's like being super-glued to his books and files. To tear him off from those books is so difficult, i don think Kak Ain can even do it. Seeing him like tat suffocates me u noe. [as if im the one huh?] He never goes out of his room all day, n that happens everyday. Well, maybe he did go out to pee or do his business or for prayers, but other than that he never ever goes out. Bet if i gonna take a thermometer and test his room temp, i think it'll be suffering from a very high fever. Heh.
My spectacles that ive bought this previous March had one of its hooks broken. Gosh. Not a year yet, but its already damaged. Wat in the world did i do? I don play soccer or anything that harms my things, do i? No no. Maybe its the fact that i am the one that damages things...
Today's menu for breaking fast will be Tahu Goreng. Quite an easy one, since it does not require muc ingredients. My father have been longing to eat my mum's Tahu Goreng, so today he'll finally get to eat it. Yummy yummy.
Sometimes its hard to hide these feelings. I noe im juz a small kid, but i do have a say in certain things. Why is it that everytime i have to be in the middle? Why is it that everytime ppl turns to me to do the bad job? And being a kid, ppl don take my words seriously. But i hav to do it becoz they want me too. Im witnessing things that makes my heart trembles n shatters, and i hate it. One day when i'm old, i might juz as well live on my own without makin a mess in anyone's lives.
The fasting month is a month with lots of obstacles and mazes. I'm praying for the best of it. Insyaallah.
