Wednesday, December 22, 2004
1) I worry that my first MMA project is to be handed in on by this Sunday, midnight. I juz bought the book, but i cant understand it. And no one else in my class even bothers. [And ive not start a single thing yet]
2) I worry that in BIS class, i do not understand a single thing on what the lecturer talked bout on Infomation Systems. And no one else in my class listens to him.
3) I worry that my class never makes an effort to do work, or do something useful. Coz i hav no one to refer, no one to ask questions.
4) I worry that in PSP2 class, which is programming class, i do not know how to apply my understanding to the questions.
5) I worry that later in second year, i will not get thru PSP2, and hence, my diploma as an IT-ian is of no use.
6) I worry that once i graduate, i wont be of any useful to any companies. My terrible office memory in HSBC will haunt me forever.
7) I worry that my brother are havin probs with my parents.
8) I worry that the enemies are attackin my grandma.
9) I worry for my position in MSS camp, becoz im afraid i will not do a gd job in it. Im afraid of the expectations. Im afraid i cannot live up to their expectations.
10) I worry that i do not have a real close bez fren in poly, whom i can study, talk n share things together.
11) I worry that now im running out of money, but i do not want to burden my parents.
12) I worry that as everyone claims, im havin a communication problem.
13) I worry for the fact that im a loner, and that my first impression scares ppl away.
14) I worry that i could not share my tots n feelings with my parents, becoz they alwiz think negative of me.
See? Im a worry-wart. I worry for the slightest things. And i don like this side of mine. But something happened that makes me think twice. A fren of mine juz lost her grandfather. He passed away last week. The news really hit her hard. I pity her, and i felt like cryin whenever i see her. She muz have been very close with her grand. Its a terrible state.
So comparing to my problem, i think my problem is juz a child's play thing. But still, as ive mentioned juz now, im a big worry-wart. No matter what happens, worry-wart will forever worry on everything.
Hopeless. Blur. Stressed.
