Thursday, December 02, 2004
Ahhhhh. Boredom is killin me to bits. These kind of situations are very bad. Coz when u r bored, u began to think of unnecessary things. U began having negative thoughts in ur mind. And worst, u began to feel depressed. And when u felt depressed, u felt lousy n u felt useless. These feelings are so irritating n annoying, u juz wanna freak out. Urghh. *stares*
Trust is a very heavy word isnt it? Until now, i dunno wats the real meaning of it, coz ive never feel the feeling of trust. I wanted that trust so much. Am i really a bad girl that they don wanna give me the trust that they shld hav? I hate it, i hate it. Im no more a kid. Yes, i noe im still a teenager, but im not a kid for gdness sake. I have my own feelings, my own tots, and my own privacy. They are treating me like a kid, and i don like tat. Am i not gd enuf for them? Am i not clever enuf? Am i juz a nuisance?
I may be juz seventeen, but i still noe wats wrong n wats rite. Im not a kid anymore where they can juz stash away my feelings juz like tat. I'm merely stating out wat i think is rite. And wat do i get exactly? ..........
Sometimes i wonder bout we grumblers...Are we really in the wrong? Ppl, why are we alwiz grumbling bout our lives? We are juz human beings aren't we? There are bounds to be obstacles n challenges in lives of coz. Why cant we juz accept it, n try our bez to be a better person? Why are we still like this? Crying, grumbling n complaining?????
As mad as i can be, i noe its all God's challenges to us. Its a test from Him. No matter how mad and how frustrated we are, we should not let it control us. Never.
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The Enemy:
You think you can win. You will not win. The battle is on between us. You think im stupid? No im not. Im perfectly aware of wat you are doin. You wanna destroy us. You are waiting for me to give it all up. No, i will not give up. You will lose, and we will win. We'll see who'll be the winner. Yes... We'll see on Judgement Day.
