Monday, May 02, 2005
Tmr i am meeting Ayu. No choice, coz she's busy with floorball and werk. Only free tmr, to discuss some last minute items. Chances are, i'll be goin home late again tmr. Honestly, im beat, im tired and im stressed. Have been goin out everyday straight for this one whole week. Going home everyday beyond 10pm, including today. I am having such wonderful holidays isnt it?
I am such a burden sometimes. I cant help feeling guilty all the times. Fingers will keep pointing at me. I am such an extra, and i am such a worry-wart. Im becoming an old maid soon. And im having a very very low self-esteem at the moment.
Only God noes what im goin thru. Im certain He's the only One who will help me all along. There's no one else to turn to, except Him. Too many confusions, too many questions, and too many uncertainties. Everything is like a cobweb, jumbled up altogether. Please God, help me. My mind's blank. Help me please.
Hanya kepadaMu aku mengadu. Hanya kepadaMu aku luahkan segalanya. Adakah hikmah disebalik segala-galanya?
Im tired. I am really tired.
