Monday, June 20, 2005
Being a kid doesnt help. It truly doesnt. A kid in a family never gets heard. Neva. Period.
A cheerful evening with my friends was something i'll treasure. Being there with my frens, i gotta say it again, i juz love being with them. For once, i was delighful and glad to see all of us together. Ain, Een, Jun, Nad, myself and Ayu. The six of us. I love u gerls. I truly treasure our friendship. Please make this a long lasting one insyaAllah.
I dont wanna hurt anyone. I dont wanna be an emotional sick person. Im juz a normal teenage gerl, hoping for the bez in her life, and trying hard to survive. Im not trying to be an arrogant selfish lady. Im not. I juz wanna study. I want the space. No, correct that..i need some space. Since when am i becoming weak? Since when am i surrendering to myself? And since when am i becoming like this?
Im torn between myself and friendship. Please, i noe im not making sense here. The idea of being alone doesnt strike me as the best choice, but thats the only solution. I need some time alone. I juz wish i could vanish for a while. Im lost, and im confused. I am a selfish friend rite? Selfish and arrogant.
I hate for the fact that im weak. I hate for the fact that im easily stressed. I hate for the fact that im sensitive. I hate for the fact that im easily provoked. I hate for the fact that im scared of expectations. And i hate for the fact that im me.
Mann.
This is a depressing entry.
Sorry readers. U have to bear with me this once.
Again.
Friends forever to my gerlfrens. I lurve u all. Pls do allow me to vanish for a while. I juz need it. Thx...
*hugz to all*
