Monday, July 04, 2005
Ive got one goal since i stepped into np, that is, get a good diploma cert and off i go to working life. I'm not gonna be one of those top 5%, im not gonna be those top few distinction peeps, and im not gonna be those few popular smart ladies. Wat im gonna be is myself, a brand new me, a fresh poly graduate with good results, ready to face the challenges in the working world. But seeing my condition at the moment, can i?
Lemme ask a few questions............
Is it wrong to be stayin back in sch to study? Is it wrong to be stayin back till late at night in sch to finish the assignments? Is it wrong to spend hours in the library alone? Is it wrong to not having any cca at all? Is it wrong not to mingle around with other more 'sociable' people? Is it wrong to not having skip class since year 1? Is it wrong being serious all the time? Is it wrong to be sensitve and emotional? Is it wrong to be trying hard to achieve something? Is it wrong to have expectations, without people lookin down on you?
Is it wrong to be ME??
Perhaps i should go back to the old me. The old strange loner during year one semester one. The very quiet gerl, whom u wont even take a second glance to look at. The gerl who goes everywhere alone, ignored and unknown. Maybe i should go back to the old shell of mine, where i felt more secure and private. My life is my world, and my world is my life. I wont be bothering any people, and people wont be bothered by me. No complications, no problems.
Yeah, that old Fara.
Inferiority complex is a bad thing. It kills off ur self-esteem, your personality and your everything.
Juz thinkin...
Have a gd nite sleep peepz.
*smilez*
P.S: Its a waste of time thinkin such stuff, dont ya think so? Maybe i shall juz insert dozens of cotton wools into my ears, and do my own stuff. At the same time, i have no intentions of hurting anyone or anybody particular. Different individuals are given the right to hav their own opinions. I shall continue to be myself.
Period.
