Friday, October 07, 2005
- Saidina Ali Bin Abi Talib r.a
Was chatting with a friend of mine on MSN, and we were discussing on the subject Maths. She was stressed and was uncertain of the decision to sit for the A Level Maths exam this november, and thought of backing out. She said its too demanding, and was juz not in the mood to study during this semester holiday break. But funny thing is, when asked why she took it up in the first place was becoz the interest she had in math.
Interest alone is never enough to conquer JC subjects. JC is tough and it requires more than what you learn in class. They expect you to know beyond the textbook. Just flipping notes and attending classes (like in poly) doesnt even guarantee you a pass.
And my friend now only had a month plus before the exams.
Not all poly students get a chance to sit for an A Level exam, but my friend is thinking of backing out. The school had given such a great opportunity, its a waste to back out. I'll only had one advice to tell her. The choice is hers.
Decisions. Its all about decisions that one has to make. And knowledge is definitely an important asset in one's life.
"Harta itu kurang apabila dibelanjakan tapi ilmu bertambah bila dibelanjakan."
Speaking of that, i might as well share some of my deepest thoughts. Not able to go to JC had always been a nightmare that haunted me since the day of the results. The disappointment, the hopes, the dreams all came crashing down. Ive never wanted to release the hug that Fad gave me on that day, coz i noe i wont be wih her anymore. I spent days, weeks, and months after that trying to keep myself together. Ive wasted enough tears thinking about it. Yes, im that weak. Its hard, and i certainly believe its one of the hardest moment ive experienced in my life. Coz i know ive failed to live up to the expectations. Mine and my family's.
Failure.
Thats the turning point where everything changes.
Thats what changed my life.
Going into poly has always been a second choice, but nothing can change the fate He's given us. I came into NP, hoping to re-built my dreams and hopes once again. I learnt to pick up the pieces of my dreams one by one. I entered poly life with full of uncertainies and negative thoughts. But the other side of me told that its not the end of the world, and that God has something better for me to discover. From a girl who came alone into the course with no friends at all, to a girl with wonderful galfrens and great friends around, i am able to refill my confidence.
The past failure makes me a stronger person.
Failure is indeed the best medicine one ever had.
Alhamdulilah, i am happy with what i have now, and i'll never wish for more without making any effort. Expectations are important in life, and effort has to be inserted to reach the ultimate goal.
Usaha + Doa + Tawakkal = InsyaAllah kejayaan yang diinginkan.
In this holy month of Ramadhan, let us pray to Him for forgiveness and change to be a better person. Only He understands you, and only He who make things happen for you. Ask for his berkat and rahmat, and pray for your well-being. Everthing happens for a reason, and He's always there to guide you. Remember Him, and thus He will remember you.
"Pintu kejayaan di depan matamu. Kamu hanya perlu berusaha, dan terus berusaha wahai kawan-kawanku. Gagal sekali tidak bermakna gagal selama-lamanya. Ayuh, marilah kita sama-sama bekerja keras untuk mengecapi kejayaan yang dinantikan. InsyaAllah."
