Thursday, December 29, 2005
Innalillawainna lilla' hiraji'un.
Arwah was my nenek sedara, and she was my nenek's best frend. Nenek was discharged today, and i was so happy to see her back home. We took her to our house, knowing that the aunty still has to handle her sick mom. We wanted to keep nenek at our house first for the time being.
Arwah kept mentioning she was missing my nenek badly, and hoped to see her back. I realised now, that she didnt get to fulfill her last wish.
This is a big blow for me and the family.
If only we didnt take nenek, she would be able to meet her for the last time...
If only we didnt take nenek, she would be able to be with her on her death bed...
If only we didnt take nenek.....
Wat im feeling now are beyond words. iamjuzsosad.
Arwah was besides nenek when the ambulance came to pick nenek up dat sunday morning. She was crying and wailing for nenek. She cries for my nenek all the time, despite her own sick condition. Coz nenek is the only fren she's got in the world.
Tapi kini arwah yang pergi dulu...
.shesgone.
I went to her house last week for bro's bertandang. She remembered me after a few minutes of describing. She cried when kak ain gave her money. She cried when mom hugged her. She cried when she saw us visiting her.
And now i cried, thinking of her.
"Kami datang dariMu, kami kembali kepadaMu jua. Ajal maut di tanganMu kerna segalanya hanya Engkau yg menentukan. Sesungguhnya Kami merupakan hambaMu yg lemah. Lantas, kami hanya mampu berdoa kepadaMu. Cucurilah roh arwah, semoga arwah dikhaskan tempat yg paling mulia di sisiMu Ya Rabbi. InsyaAllah. Amin"
treasure ur loved ones
