Friday, January 13, 2006
I gotta admit, with the assignments and extra commitments piling up, of coz one will feel stressed. But we cant have that for an excuse isn't it? Its just the indirect way of saying "im not trying hard enough". But as human beings, tats our nature i guess. The urge to slack, the urge to rest, and the urge to laze around. Speaking of that, made me realised something. Till now, im still unsure of my goals. A friend asked me of my plans after poly, and i went silent after hearing the question. Thats the 'hardest' question to answer, coz im still very doubtful of my job scope.
Somehow, i find it hard to enter the working arena, where you have to meet all kinds of people. I very much prefer studying than working. Anti-social, tats what people call me. I agree to a certain extent, becoz sometimes i just dread the moment of meeting new people. And in working life? Thats wat is important most. Its all about adapting and changing. My weakest point. It takes a long time for me to be good friends with people. To be comfortable with people. And till now, im still having difficulty trying to converse with some of my classmates. Its just me, or them, i dunno. Within one sem, i can even count how many sentences i conversed with them. Becoz its that very little.
I once joked with mum saying that i wanna study my whole life, and will never work. Mom was mad, of coz. How can you not work and pay back ur parents' infinite good deeds and contributions to you as a daughter? Come to think of it, i realise im being selfish. Urgh. How can i ever think that? Having a career and managing your own life is just part of your responsibility isnt it?
Now, now do you wonder why im having a very serious entry now. Well, it just hit me that its my 4th sem now, and that Graduation is not far from now(insyaAllah). I'll still have to go for attachment and one more sem. Guess i'll leave this one more year for the final thinking and decision.
Back to the assignment, which is due this monday morning. Im stuck with the diagram, and im staring at the screen without any progress since subuh. And tats when i began to frown, and think about the future. If i cant complete this one BCE diagram within many days, can i complete many diagrams in few days during my career later?
Fara, fara. You never change, do you?
Worries and more worries.
You think too much lar.
Thats why u call urself a worry-wart.
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Back to work.
Have a nice day, readers...
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P.S: Welcome back een! Please dont go kembang, but we really miss you! Hope to see you in sch always! hugsss.
