Friday, March 16, 2007
I felt a tingling feeling, as i watched her winced painfully while standing up. As much as i want her illness to dissolve as quickly as possible, there's always something called patience and faith. Therapy is now done, but the other dose must always be injected once in a while. Having a daughter who is still on the job-loose mode doesnt help much either (financially). Presence wise? Well, im always out on jobseeking + sch meeting + eatingout. Now, i feel useless for a while.
Well, mom.
That aside, you noe i'll always love you. Nothing can ever repay the 19 years of love, care and concern showered to yours truly.
:)
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I simply love this!
Now, this is a malay family series on Suria which i'm getting addicted to. Every Friday nights at 8.30pm. An eye-opener for the community. Especially for the family of the younger generation. Because such situations really do occur in our malay families. Aha.
There's always this stubborn-ness in the back of every young parents' mind, which indirectly always always hurts the parents' feelings unknowingly. A reminder to all of us, to be more aware of our parents' feelings at times. Especially when you are building a family of your own later. In the future? Yes.
:)
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Ive lost all the pretty pretty forwarded messages from the old mobile. Can anyone please please forward some pretty messages?
Sheesh.
Looking at the results, i began to think and reflect a lil bit on my internship experience. 5 months of internship at Tangs was really worth it. An IT student attached in a retail sector? A bit un-convincing but all praises to Allah swt, it went well in the end. At the beginning, things were a bit hard but it gets better as the months passed by. The outcome of those months equates to the final grade of my final semester. Somehow i view it like a closing down ceremony of the poly semesters. Make or break, they say.
Alhamdulillah.
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At times, emotional rides hit u and you're caught off-guard for a moment. Now i wonder why is that so?
Sis and bro demanded a reply as to why the decision of not continuing of studies, when the opportunity is there. I merely shrugged off their questions with a blank stare. Becoz.I.do.not.know. Of my future plans and goals and etc etc etc.
Thats a not a very good answer, i noe. At most, give me a year to think and i'll decide. There's too many things running in my head at the moment. Or perhaps, a year might be too long. Ahhhhh. Fara is just too unpredictable and indecisive. I dont know what's best for me. Simply said.
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At this moment, i feel like taking a stride along the shore, to feel the sand before my feet, and stare longingly at the bright glittering stars.
It reminds me of the childhood days where i'll smile my toothless grin and wish to mom on something like, "Dah besar akak nak jadi.......cikgu".
Ahh, such an irony.
Back then as kids, we seemed so sure of what we wanted to become of later in life. Teachers in school always made a point to the student to write down his/her ambitions. And now, almost ten years later (or more), equipped with a soon-to-be-poly-grad title, we found ourselvels in a dillema of choosing the correct career path.
Well, for me at least.
-slumps-
Bro says the journey is still long, and you have more years (insyaAllah) ahead. So seize the opportunity and study as far as you can.
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Ahh well.
The night's here, let's have a gd nite sleep everyone.
**virtual purple orchid.
:)
Sweet dreams readers.
