Tuesday, February 19, 2008
To be handling new software system, one hardware system, rectify the problems (alone without any internal discussion), create new ideas, solve the current bugs, chase vendors & programmers for help, got blamed for dragging the project, handle a project invoice, did a mistake in another invoice, almost got into a quarrel with a colleague, almost gave up and almost just want to run away.
Now later in the afternoon i'll need to enroll the workers' fingerprint for Time & Attendance system. I wonder what's the HR doing. Least is, there shld be another one assisting. But........
URGHHH.
In the midst of running a Project - which they claimed to be so delayed, i still need to do those other tasks which i think can be shared and rotated among others. But i dont see the negotiation or any indication from them. I think being too quiet puts me into a weaker spot. Just because i dont want to create an unpleasant situation, i'd rather swallow and do it. Now i think, i'm to blame. I should have just VOICE OUT.
Now i keep questioning my ability to finish off the Project. I set myself a dateline before i leave the company. Yesterday was bad, and i almost couldnt drag my feet back home. My whole body felt so tired, weak and my mind was so cramped up. Mood was very down, everyone else was busy, and i just had no one to turn to.
A lonely dinner at Banquet sets the mind to peacefulness. I watched everyone else around me, and i realised how different kinds of lives exist. I dont want to start demanding, cause it just gets me to nowhere. I realised how everybody's world differs and how busy all of us can get.
I really missed all the times i had with my loved ones.
Thank goodness i met up with the two lovelies Fad & Hanizah last Friday for a last-minute meetup session.
Each of us had our own fair share of problems, and whats best than to share it with your own close mates. I share their sentiments, and i'd pray the best for the both of them and their future. InsyaAllah gerls.
*hugs*
We had dinner at Ramen-Ten and then we had chocolates and sundaes at McCafe. We were desperate to make our 'sour' mode to 'sweet' mode. So there you go, we indulged in those sweet stuff. heh.
:)
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Back to work.
URGHHH.
Well wish me luck now.
Taking care!
