Friday, March 14, 2008
Setiap yg berlaku, pasti ada hikmahnya...
I couldnt describe the moments that she has to go through now. A brief glance at her, already puts my eyes close to tears. The longer i looked at her, the more my heart aches. I dont know whether i am prepared for reality. Bro said she has to know the reality. He didnt noe that his own sister is still struggling to swallow the reality till now..
As much as i want to put a brave front act, i know one day all of the emotions will pour out. I hope not infront of her. Never..
Medications aren't going well.
I acted infront of them as if i dont know. Fact is, i knew it. It's not working.
I wish at this moment you are around.
A few days ago she mentioned she wanted to see me get married. She wanted to see my child, her grandchild. She wanted to see me with my husband. She wanted to stay with me when she grows older. She wanted to eat my home-cooked food. She just wanted...to be given a chance again...
SubhanaALLAH.
How can a daughter's heart not break the moment u hear these?
I couldnt stop hugging her everytime i sees her at home. I couldnt look at her pale face long enough without crying to sleep alone. I couldnt bear to witness her pain...
O ALLAH, give me the strength to overcome this.
O ALLAH, give me the willpower to keep my
emotions under control...
Wallahu'alam.
