Sunday, July 20, 2008
Hari yg bersejarah buat diriku.
"Tiap-tiap yang berjiwa akan merasakan mati. Kami akan menguji kamu dengan keburukan dan kebaikan sebagai cobaan (yang sebenar-benarnya). Dan hanya kepada Kami lah kamu dikembalikan"
- 21:35
"Telah kau telan lara,
Dan terima segala,
Dugaan dan badai yang melanda,
Duhai ibu..."
Reminiscing of the past.
Remember the day i had fever, you soaked my whole body with towels of tap water.. Remember the day we went to Langkawi, our last family holiday in year 2003.. Remember the days before Syawal.. Remember the day we went to Vivo City after your medical appointment.. Remember the day u attended my Graduation Day.. Remember the days that i learnt cooking from you.. Remember the day you witnessed my engagement.. Remember the day the nurse told you that my face resembles you.. Remember the day when i gave you the heart-shaped pillow on Mothers' Day.. Remember the day my siblings and i asked for your forgiveness at hosp.. Remember the days i kissed your cheek at night after i reached home from work..
I've always been your little girl, and i will always be.
Forgive me for all of my past wrongdoings...
The moments i shared with you for the past 20 years of my life, is kept for eternity. Those will be my living memories. You shall always be in my heart, forever.
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I dont know what's up next.
A new journey, has just began. I felt empty. I felt as if i've lost a major part of me. A part of my soul. For a moment, i cannot believe what has happened.
I followed through the whole procedure. Alhamdulillah i am able to witness and help the bathing part. It was a life experience. It was totally heart-wrenching, and i cannot help but weep at the final sight. She looked so peaceful...
ALLAH noes best. She has gone through quite a lot ever since she was diagnosed of the illness. I couldnt bear to see her in pain anymore. I thought she would be able to be with us for at least a final Ramadhan and Syawal. But, ALLAH loves her more...
This is the greatest change in my life. I've always been close to her than anyone before. She is the place whom i turned to at every single point of time in my life. Nothing can ever separate a mom and a daughter....except death..
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I've got to be strong. But i dont if i will or can. Ramadhan is reaching soon. I dont know how i'm able to go through...
Thank you to my buddies Fad, Ahmad, Yas, Nad, Ain, Een, Jun and sis Nisha for your presence at the ceremony. I couldnt ask for more. I am sure she is glad to have all of you there too. Thank you too to the others who smsed me. Your caring thoughts touched me, and may ALLAH bless all of you in return.
Thank you to the fiance, for the presence and help throughout the ceremony. It was priceless. I didnt know you smsed all of your friends wishing for their prayers as well. Syukran my dear.. I knew it has an impact on you too, but i know u'll be able to take it becoz ure stronger than me. She has put on her hopes on you, and i hope you will not disappoint her last wish insya allah.
A priceless hug to my family (dad, bro and sis-in-law). This, made me treasure the three of you more. It has been quite a journey. We shared our sorrow and happiness together. I hope that we'll be able to start off this new beginning together as well..
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And finally again, thank you to everyone who has helped to pray for me, comfort me, and gave me encouragement.
Jazakallahu Khairan Katsiiran.
May ALLAH swt bless you in all ways.
"Dilah redha dgn pemergian mak...insya allah"
Our last photo together.
And to You, we shall return.
