Wednesday, August 06, 2008
I survived through the dinner at Swissotel, The Stamford. Dropped at Maulana for Magrib before heading to Swissotel at City Hall. Was almost an hour late, but had no choice as they had no extra rooms for prayers over there.
The teachers wore glamorous suits and gowns, and they all looked different that night. I was seated at the Muslim table, consisting of 6 guys and 4 ladies. Had a lift home by one of the teachers together with another 3 teachers. Reached home almost near to midnight. It was a school holiday the next day, but office people still has to report to work....
With teacher samsinar
Was feeling very tired, but sleeping was hard. Tossing in bed, and staring into the dark ceiling was something i dread. Everyone else was asleep, but i was still blinking in darkness.
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Work is really starting to get tougher. The challenging part has yet to come. The guy is leaving soon in a few days time, and i'll be on my own. The teachers are hard to get because they are always not at their tables. All i'm asking for is to be a fast-learner and a motivated person. But it seems like i'm none of these two...
The fact that i am the youngest among the whole school doesnt help. People keep questioning my ability to perform. I noe experience counts, but young people like me needs motivation and trust as well. Call me sensitive, but i still dont get it why, whenever i answered their question about my age, they gave me a shocking look and a gasp. This even includes the aunty cleaner, the foodstall makcik and even the uncle attendant.
Young people means trouble ker?
Not serious? Not committed?
-shrugs-
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More stress coming the way..
I'm clueless on how to get rid of stress. Since young, i get stress easily. And i always have someone to refer to. I think it is time to manage my stress on my own. Getting dependant on people is unhealthy - to the mind, and especially the emotions.
I need to learn to stand on my own. I cant expect people to always be there for me. Right?
Righttttt.
(a sigh in the head)
I'll tuck in with a heavy heart.
The right eye is having a small swelling.
Good night people!
far
