Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Syukur kita diketemukan sekali lagi.
:)
It is at this point where memories starts to fill in, and it happened without the need to recall.
The nights where we would rush for Terawih prayers together, and at times got scolded by her for being late. Upon reaching al-iman, we would chop a familiar corner and sit closely to each other, taking care of each others' bags. We would be kanchiong together and pay extra attention to our bags, afraid that our precious bags will be gone (we used to have the same negative thoughts together. heh).
So last few nights i went to al-iman on my own, and i looked past all the telekung-clad aunties. I couldnt help but feel a tinge of sadness which caused a tear. This isnt good...
Been staying back at our house, so its just me and dad. I've always dont like changes, but reality shows that we HAVE to face changes. As i woke up in the morning, i tend to forget that sahur is not ready yet - as i am so used to knowing that sahur will be ready by the time she wakes me up. Ive took certain things and situations for granted, which has landed me in this kind of position and emotion.
Moving ahead, it is time to think positive and do what i can insya allah.
Syawal would be another cycle of emotions, and i hope (really really hope) that i would get through the first day without any panda or swollen eyes.
.......
Now is the term break holiday, and i'm trying to savour the feeling of peacefulness without having to face teachers' and parents' queries, and not to mention the cries and wailings of children.
Having course yesterday was a refreshing feel, becoz i finally got to see some of my batch. They were talking about the bootcamp, which was a blast. Wonder when i'll get some time off and hide away in Johor for a few days to keep the mind peaceful
.....
The hand is having a bad cramp, that i am forced to fold the arms ALL the time. This cramp almost got me a flu.
As mentioned by the speaker in the course ystrdy,
"You chosed your happiness. You chosed to get insulted. You chosed to be sad. You chosed to be stressed. Its YOU, who will lose out in the end..."
True.
:)
Take care people, and happy fasting to all muslims!
