Friday, June 11, 2010
-shrugs-
Haven been blogging lately, due to the mad rush in office. What with the closing of Term 2, and preparing of Sports Camp and all sorts of other etc etc etc. June holidays isnt like a holiday at all. Amidst all the quietness of the General Office, there are still work to do.
These days, the mind has been blank with stuffs. What is life without issues, problems and challenges. They say that's what makes you better everyday. Sure do. But your energy tend to drain out by every cycle of it.
-slumps-
I dont know why i'm talking in circles. Its just, you know, the time where you feel down, and you just know whom you can trust to talk to. I recalled a phrase i saw once in msn by one of the friends. "It aint just a walk in the garden". How true.
Sigh.
Often, people misunderstood your intentions, your thoughts and your feelings. How well do you deal with things like that? With a baby in hand, a job to handle, a new family..i dont know how well i could cope. And in-laws, dont forget that. Oh yeaah, i definitely wont.
Sometimes people expect too much from you. And then you try to be the best you can, but you failed. And people begins to get the wrong idea about you. Like i mention earlier, i wish i could control what comes into people's mind. But i cant, of coz. So i chose to drift further and be silent. But silence dont solve problems, remember? How could i forget that?
Arfah has been the only source of smile on my face and heart. I go everywhere thinking of her. I kept hundreds photos of her in my iPhone, and every now and then i flipped open my iphone and played her video over and over again. How sad is that? Hahks!
I wished i could have someone right now who can truly understand me deep down and what i feel. A friend, perhaps. But even the best of friend i have may come only at a certain timing, because we're no longer teens. All of us have our own lives. We may come together, talk, have a good laugh, but thats about it. We go back into our lives after that.
What more could i ask?
Patience is all i have. Maybe God has a plan for me.
Truly.
